Terra-Essence Art

I've written a lot of poetry that could become future song lyrics. I might post some of the random poems I have sometime. Anyways here's some new artwork and a poem: ...Inert Guardian... Gripping to the ledge Tottering on the edge Contort as I lay Scream as I may Is this the moment reality breaks? Mayhem seething and irate Is this the moment this form decays? Eagerly overcome and ensnare rationality from the unconductive husk that is my brain The will cannot be contained what flesh has made weak - is disdained Deep peace obtained lies dormant Hermetic, unacclaimed Sing to myself to starve the shadow Sing to myself to stave the beast Reverberations contrite, alluding to wishful jouissance  Grasping at visions of haleness and love  Watchful orbs survey in fragments, a reminder this is a non-divergent path To suffer need not elicit pain Music by: Mt_Majora Vocals by: Me :)

It's been a while since my last post. A lot of changes have taken place in my life. Too many, actually. It's kind of overwhelming and I'm surprised I handled any of it given the state I'm in. Emotional turmoil runs deep. Suffice it to say, I'm in a new place physically and mentally. I've finally adjusted and settled in to the point that I was able to finish some artwork. In terms of health, I've made some great strides. I can do more physically and I'm more housebound than bedridden. I still can't walk more than a minute without crumpling into a jittery, fucky goo pile xD All I can do is laugh at how ridiculous my body is reacting to the most normal of stimuli. I'll never underestimate the miracle that is basic fucking standing up ever again! Anyways.... I drew the original a couple months ago now, but just now have finished the coloring process. ..~Succumb~.. Torn far enough through the core Sedated, deranged stat...

...Paralysis... The horror of being pure consciousness trapped in a mortal coil that ignores your will. Made with prismacolors, graphite, and charcoal In my last post, I explained about my post viral fatigue. I colored and fleshed out my sketch and this is what I came up with:

It's been about two months that I've been struggling with covid-19 post-viral fatigue and who knows what else. Technically, I've been sick since mid-March, but it's only been in the past two months that I've been to the point where I'm essentially bedbound. It was worse a month ago, but I'm finally to the point where I can walk to the bathroom once a day by myself and open the curtains in my bedroom to let the sunlight in. Other than that, I'm in bed all day, unable to walk any farther than what I've just mentioned. Previously, I was unable to do anything but lay in bed and meditate. It was a struggle to even pick up my water bottle and eating knocked me out. Nowadays, I've got just enough strength to draw, write, or even sing. I'm optimistic I'll get better, it's just a slow as fuck process. I've learned to be patient and that results come weekly or even monthly, not daily. For anyone dealing with any sickness,  chronic or otherw...

There was a poetry contest and so I wrote these two short poems about love: The warmth we seek isn't for the weak When the fire ignites, oh how we shriek with delight When the passion wanes, the faint of heart won't remain Those that do, hide behind the mystique of misleading doublespeak All that deception won't bring connection What's being saved?  Surely not the love that's craved The warmth I seek isn't for me if I'm weak It's a fickle flame I tend faithfully When it goes low, I nurture it so No matter the souls, love is a growth to extol ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The warmth we seek isn't for the weak Grasping hands grope for something real To take the edge off the mortality and loneliness we feel In the chaos and in the pain, search for a flame to show the way If such a rare, true light is found, What matters the form it takes, or the shape? The warmth I seek isn't f...

This is my latest creation made from paper clay and acrylic paint: I even made a rudimentary video showing my process: Recent Activities: It's been a while since I updated my blog. At the moment, on the music front, I was working on a collaboration with my wonderful partner - Mt_Majora. I sang on a couple of his songs and I'll be posting about that when I have some artwork done for my EP. I've also been working on learning Ableton for my solo music work. I haven't been writing or doing as much art as I'd like, but I've been having health issues so I'm not beating myself up about that. After all, I'm still working and stuff. For anyone reading this, stay safe out there!

I haven't posted in a long time, but it doesn't mean I haven't been doing anything :) Recently I've gotten into sculpting and jewelry making. I made two new sculptures. One is a replica of Majora's Mask: View this post on Instagram Majora's Mask Sculpture. Created from paper clay 🌹☠️ #claysculpture #clay #majorasmask #zelda #zeldafanart #art #artwork #sculpting #sculpture A post shared by Terra-Essence Art (@terra.essence.art) on Mar 6, 2020 at 8:14pm PST The other sculpture is a decorative, water element creature mask: View this post on Instagram ☠️ Water Element Decorative Monster Mask ☠️ I'm working on making some wearable masks! For now this is a decorative clay mask. #decorativeart #decorative #clay #mask #claymask #claysculpture #artwork #waterelement #monster #monstermask A post shared by Terra-Essence Art (@...

Yup, the title says it all. I made my first performance video recording myself re-creating one of the songs off of my demo tape . I had a lot of fun setting up my little area: View this post on Instagram This is my recording area for a video I'll be making for a song off of my demo tape 🌹💀 #makingof #behindthescenes #music #musician #recordingarea #recording #peacefulspace #witchyvibes A post shared by Terra-Essence Art (@terra.essence.art) on Dec 24, 2019 at 1:03am PST I went all out and dressed up too because it's fun and I can: View this post on Instagram Pre-video photoshoot 🖤 I hyped myself up and was feeling sexeh even though the song I was working on was quite melancholic 💀🥀 Video will be out soon~ #photoshoot #darkaesthetic #musician #behindthescenes #makingof #witchyvibes #witchy A post shared by Terra-Essence Art (@terr...

So recently I've been using After Effects more. Anyways, I made some music in FL studio and added it to an old video I had made a while back. I used some commercial free stock footage of a glowing, magickal-looking sprite thingy and boom - intro video :)

So recently I released a new album that's kinda shitty but whatever - I think the art's cool. I made the artwork, album art, and animation myself. I made a visualizer in After Effects. I've made a couple of other digital paintings recently. They can all be found on my ArtStation. I actually started a new merch shop on Teespring too. I'm still posting up different designs. For now I'm going to be experimenting with new sounds and creating new T-shirt designs. I really want to make more time for writing though! I want to complete more of my own original stuff X)

"They who dance are thought mad by those who hear not the music." - Unknown "The higher we soar the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly" - Friedrich Nietzsche  "If we never experience the chill of a dark winter, it is very unlikely that we will ever cherish the warmth of a bright summer’s day. Nothing stimulates our appetite for the simple joys of life more than the starvation caused by sadness or desperation. ...it is vital that we turn each and every dark tear into a pearl of wisdom..." - Anthon St. Maarten For some reason, I felt like posting these. They're meaningful to me in different ways.  It was limiting to have grown up with social anxiety or really just anxiety in general. Luckily, I'm not plagued or held back by what I think people are thinking of me anymore. It's hard to convince myself that anything I do is worthwhile, so it's nice to remember to not give a fuck. That nothing matters in the best, most beautifu...

I recently created this piece. It's album art~  Mt_Majora gave me the imagery. I was instructed to create a picture with a man and a woman. The man is covering the woman's eyes and is wearing a blindfold that's torn over one eye. Originally, the man was supposed to look like he was protecting the woman - shielding her eyes from the horrors of the world and whatnot - but as I drew, it just kind of morphed into him looking like he's dominating her or something (haha XD) Plus wtf is with the resemblance to Peter Steele (whom I'd forgotten even existed at the time)? Here's a gif of the process: Aaaaand a video of me speed-painting:

This is a banner I made for a band called FNGI MAGI . This is a random scene from a visualizer I made for another band called Behind the Machine .

I took a break from writing and Twitching to work on some music stuff. Anyways, I recently finished a painting~ I'm going to be working on finishing my fanfic again once and for all. It's a slow process, but I'm a perfectionist and like to finish projects.

Man, I'm feeling productive. I finished another chapter for my fanfic (which I'll be posting soon), I got some work done on a new painting (which I'll also be posting soon when I'm done), and I figured out my new Twitch schedule~ This next Saturday I'll be streaming Anniversary no Kuni no Alice. I'm on Blood Dupre's route trying to get his rose garden ending. Don't know if I'm going to stick to streaming, but in the future I'd like to stream my digital art process.

I haven't posted in a while, so I thought I would just randomly talk about what I'm up to~ At the moment, I've been addicted to this dressing game. It's a cute app with lots of outfits <3 It's a nice time waster. I've been so busy that I haven't been able to watch any anime or really anything at all. I've been wanting to catch up on Tokyo Ghoul. I watched the first season and then before knew it four seasons were already out (>.<)! I've also really been wanting to watch the second season of Psycho-Pass. I'm a total Ginoza fangirl haha~ I was pleasantly surprised to find out that Psycho-Pass has a VN and now I gotta check that out too. Not to mention that I want to play Sweet Pool, a VN by Nitro+Chiral (I'm not super into BL, but Nitro consistently has great writing and characters). I'm swamped with stuff to play and that I want to see 😂 I feel like I'm never going to catch up! Anyways, I've been slowly but surely w...

Hi random people reading this :) I haven't posted for a while, but that doesn't mean I haven't been busy. I've been posting up a Fanfic called Mist's Legacy on Fanfiction.net and DeviantArt . It's based on the anime Naruto/Naruto Shippuden. It's a romance fanfic with the main couple being my OC, Mizushima Aiko, and Uchiha Sasuke. I decided to draw the couple mid conversation in one of Orochimaru's bases. I imagine what they’re saying would go something like this: ~~~~~~ Sasuke: I’ve noticed this for a long time now. Why does Kabuto glare at your sash? Aiko: *laughs* Because I shot him down when he insisted I wear that tacky purple belt. Sasuke: *raises an eyebrow* Is that all you did? If so, Kabuto is more sensitive than I initially thought. Aiko: He is sensitive if he’s still holding a grudge after a few years. When I first came under Orochimaru’s caring tutelage, my old clothes were worn out so Kabuto brought me a new se...

Guess what? I've decided to post up all of my old fanfic. I'll be going through it and lightly editing it before putting it on DeviantArt and Fanfiction.net . I'm super nervous about this because I've always been overly critical of my writing, but whatever. I used to post fanfic up on Quizilla back in the day before it was bought out. Eventually when Quizilla turned suckish, I took all my work down, got super ambitious, and wanted to create my own fanfic VNs. Basically, right now, I lack the time and the funds to create quality VNs for both Naruto and Death Note. I planned out writing all these paths for each character (which for Naruto is an undertaking haha~), but I decided to put everything on hold and pretty much drop the projects. Instead, I'll focus on my original rpg/VN because honestly I need to generate money (gotta eat, you know~) and I want to make a living off of my art and writing. For now, I've decided to simply post up what I've already w...

So recently I got into a novel called Uncertain Magic by Laura Kinsale. It's a fantasy/romance/historical piece and I absolutely adore the characters and admire the way Kinsale weaves her tale. Though Faelan (the hero) calls Roddy (the heroine) "little girl" as a disturbing nickname, I was still enthralled with the story and plot. I have to admit I fell in love a little with Faelan and so this fan art was born! Personally, I'm still not happy with the way this came out (-_-") I went for a semi-realistic art style which isn't something I'm completely comfortable with, but I tried anyways. I tinkered a lot with his face and it still didn't come out as 'realistic' as I wanted it to, but whatever. The picture I created depicts a scene from the novel. It takes place on the night of November Eve when fairies come out to dance with the dead. Faelan declared he was Finvarra, King of the Fairies, and that Roddy was his lady, Lassar (which means '...

I did some more art recently. This is an apprentice priest for my rpg / visual novel.   And here's a video of the process!  

Here's some concept art for my character, Jaws. He's a daemon from the capital of Mareterrae (the water kingdom) - Trenton. He's one of the main characters in an rpg / visual novel I'm making. I haven't posted up much (or anything, actually😅)  about my visual novel, but eventually I will! 😁Down below I posted a time-lapse of me digitally painting. *Suddenly gets pushed aside* Jaws: You're in the way. Jaws: I'd like everyone to know that's not my blood. Me: Oh, really? Jaws: Yes, really. It's not my fault the enemy decided to bleed everywhere. They were particularly messy today.